A Newsy Post

I figured I better get around to posting the big news in the Morrison house: I am pregnant! I think I have told most of you, but please don't be sad if you are finding out via blog. I really am having a rough time keeping my head on straight these days ;) I am a little over 7 weeks along and my approximate due date is Jan. 16th. I feel like I have been on a roller coaster the past few weeks. Hormones are crazy things. I am forgetful, antsy, sleepless and so tired at the same time, overwhelmed etc. Just to clarify, I am not yet feeling too overwhelmed about having a new baby, more just about getting daily chores done. I am tired and want to rest and things are backing up- I hate when things back up! I am emotional. I feel myself getting my feelings hurt for little to no reason, and getting a sudden urge to cry-sometimes about nothing, sometimes about something. Micah's birthday is coming up next week, and I still haven't decided what we are doing exactly. I had to order a bridesmaid dress for a wedding I will be in October. I had to make decisions based on a lot of unknowns-um like how big am I going to be. "Who knows!" is what I wanted to tell people, "but probably huge." I don't like making decisions anyway, but especially not when I have absolutely no idea what things will be like in October, or what dress will look good on a women entering her third trimester with her third child. I felt like today might be a good day for some blogging therapy. I have also been doing some inner housecleaning-taking inventory on some things, sorting through some thoughts and feelings I have been having. It is always hard to do this-taking stock of how am I glorifying the Lord with my life, do my actions even support this faith that I claim, how can I lose my patience so quickly with two boys that I love so deeply, where do these doubts, fears, and behaviors come from, why am I trying to put faith in my own faith and actions instead of resting in God's grace, and why is my faith so unpredictable? Some days things make so much sense, and other days I feel like I just have this head knowledge but don't know what to do with it. Does this make any sense? Do you ever feel this way? I was introducing Micah to a song on Saturday. I was sorting through a stack of CD's and found an old one by Caedmon's Call. I love the song Shifting Sand and played it for him. I realized, this is what I have been feeling the past couple of weeks. It reminded me that even though my faith is changed by every wave, the Lord and His grace have been there all the time. Here are the lyrics, and it really is a great song, you should consider downloading it!

Sometimes I believe all the lies

So I can do the things I should despise

And every day I am swayed

By whatever is on my mind

I hear it all depends on my faith

So I'm feeling precarious

The only problem I have with these mysteries

Is they're so mysterious

And like a consumer I've been thinking

If I could just get a bit more

More than my 15 minutes of faith,

Then I'd be secure

(Chorus)

My faith is like shifting sand

Changed by every wave

My faith is like shifting sand

So I stand on grace

I've begged you for some proof

For my Thomas eyes to see

A slithering staff, a leprous hand

And lions resting lazily

A glimpse of your back-side glory

And this soaked altar going ablaze

But you know I've seen so much

I explained it away

Waters rose as my doubts reigned

My sand-castle faith, it slipped away

Found myself standing on your grace

It'd been there all the time

Hopefully, I will be back soon with some fun birthday ideas for, did you miss it earlier, my almost four year old. Can you believe it? I know there are some of you who have been following us from the beginning. Can he really be 4? Talk about something to make a hormonal woman emotional. I am sure I will be taking some photo trips down memory lane this week for your viewing pleasure.